Sometimes I get lost in trying to figure out where I should be, instead of where I am. It’s like my mind wants to convince myself that I should be at the final destination, before I have the chance to book my flight.
I am working on a goal, yet keep searching for something missing. Just because I haven't completed it yet, my mind tells me that I am stuck on the runway. Of course, my higher self knows I am exactly where I am supposed to be, and the present moment holds the key to arriving at the destination. However, it doesn't negate the fact that this aspect of myself still exists. Just because my soul knows something to be true, doesn't mean that my experience will always reflect that.
To put it in layman terms, I am taking a two year intuition medicine course to be certified as a medical intuitive/spiritual coach. In the process of doing this, I have to remind myself that the journey is in the process of getting to the final destination. So I am checked into my flight, waiting for take off. Feeling impatient. Checking my watch. Scoping how many miles until I get there. This continuous feeling is never ending, because it takes me out of the present moment. I get lost and miss the golden moments before take off. Once I take off, there will be a new destination that I want to arrive at.
We can bypass these small, yet seemingly huge parts of ourselves. Or we can integrate our awareness and stay here. In the now. At this very moment. Because with that small shift, we are able to enjoy the journey. With all the pit stops and delays, because they make our journey to the destination much more complex...giving us a greater sense of gratitude.
So with this in mind, I have to make a conscious decision to stay grounded, present, and aware of my patterns. It's easy to stay in the past or the future, but to stay in the present moment requires a desire to decondition my conditioned being.